5.15.2011

Feel the silence.It's hurt



好久不见咯,我的部落格
已经快两个月了吧!
这两个月太忙了,而且我又开始有了写日记的习惯,
所以好久没更新了。

今天的我真的有点颓废
从下午到现在 脑袋都一直放空
总觉得 
世界上太多事情真的不能控制,全都在意料之外的
这种感觉让我觉得不安

而且今天有件不开心的事
我的朋友J他的好朋友好兄弟离开了他到了天堂
老实说 我第一次看到他不开心 真的可以感受到他很难过
他难过 我也跟着难过起来
我想朋友不开心 我的心情也开始变化起来了
平常只会嘻嘻哈哈的他 今天在捷运 一句话也没说 
这整个捷运 静到我很害怕 和难过 不过我明白
我能感觉到他 难过到想马上回到家
尽管我真想拍一拍他 陪他结束这段不安的捷运路程
不过最后我没做 我在想或许他不想让我看见他不开心的样子
总觉的我什么事都做不了 也不知道该怎么安慰他 有点挫败
或许他现在需要的是别人
不管怎样 静静的陪在他身边 我想就足够了 
感觉到他 真的接受不到他朋友离开的事实
这种事情真的需要时间 真的
不管他要多少时间 我都会在他身边 
身为他的朋友的我 要帮他加油
希望他可以快快振作起来
我相信 他一定会没事的

他在天堂的朋友一定会在属于他的地方很快乐的生活
我相信他一定也希望 每一个人可以更珍惜身边的朋友

今天一整天下来 让我觉得我要更珍惜身边的好朋友
我一定要让身边的人快乐的活着

加油,J & me and everyone I love.
God will bless us.

感恩所有的一切<3

3.19.2011

每一刻都在改变 我呢?

好久 好久没有更新了
没想到 今天让我更新的动力是 我不到该怎么办
我今天刚接到我姐的电话 说妈咪进院了
我当场吓傻了 我竟然无助的哭了起来
我当时第一次很害怕 不知道怎么做
只能傻傻的哭
我当下真希望我可以在妈咪身边
真的 真的 很希望
我现在有一丝小后悔这个假期留在新加坡

我真的很怕失去任何人 任何事
突然觉得自己有点弱
突然觉得自己不孝顺

我的心就怎样都不能平复
只是觉得哭了 让自己累了 不去想了

我第一次 这么怕没有听到电话铃声
深怕错过 每一次妈咪的消息
我刚接到爸的电话
爸说:“不要担心,没事的!”
我又哭了 忍不住!
怎么办?

一个人在家
我又开始乱乱想
我今天只是一直一直做家事
让自己很忙 不去想

我知道我现在要坚强
可是我很怕 很怕 接到电话
我想 今晚的我
睡不着的

突然觉得生命真的很脆弱
自己好好珍惜自己身边的一切
不要到最后后悔了

我现在知道了 什么东西都不要等了
要做的话 马上!

妈,我想你!
妈,我真的好想你!
上帝一定会保佑你的,你是好人!
最重要你是我的好妈妈!

一定要好起来!
一定!

1.29.2011

This is the last time
















This is the last time. 
I promise this is the last time.
But it's really hurt.
I hope you beside me now.
I hope you can give me a hug now.
Everything should be stop now.
Everything should be end here.






1.23.2011

*bUdDy BuDdy is U*



It's worth!
when I saw your smile.
I know...
It's really worth!

Although I spend whole night to decorate the card for you,but now I feel that it's worth,my dear!

I remembered that U have been told me that you had unhappy birthday this few years.When I heard that, I felt so sad as I think that you deserve a good birthday especially tis year- 21st birthday. A "big" birthday.

OMG! honestly , u're my first friend who celebrate 21st birthday with me d.I am damn excited d, hope u enjoy all the things we prepared with you.

I really appreciate that u with me all the time.
when I feel sad, u will listen to me.
when I feel happy, u will laugh with me.
when I cry, u will beside me .
when I do something nonsense, u will support me!
Luckily I have u beside me and company me go through all the tough days.

we like to gossip gossip *our favorite*
we like to tell each other big secret with loudly voice *wink*
we like to dream all funny things.* you know I know*
we like shopping together.
we like to sing k all the time.
we like to boom all our friends if we have the "power"! shoot back!
we like to "built" trust in our relationship. HAHA XD

I really hope you always smile.
And make the right decision. 

chongwansan:
"I will protect you and make you happy if I have the ability my dear,
but no include the boom form jaeyen, jason,zhenhui ya. HAHA. I cant even protect myself d. HAHAHA. * U WILL UNDERSTAND *!


me and you = we are buddy for 100 years!!!!

Oh my birthday girl, hope you enjoy it.
I would like to say:"Happy birthday to you, my dear"!

I will upload all the crazy picture we had yesterday soon.HAHA!

I really have funs yesterday and Love ya ! ><"""""""""""""""""""(shy)







1.05.2011

Yogi bear

























I love this movie.
Damn funny.
Jason, you really clever , pick YOGI BEAR.
OMG , the bear is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee XD

Honestly,Tampines is a great place,
but the most sad thing is tampines really is 
a long long journey for me.
jaeyen, now I just know everyday u really need to wake up 
damn early morning. Poor thing! 
wuhu!!!~

LALALALALLALALALALLALALAL, 
TODAY I PLAY ALL THE GAMES.
Xinhui and I Vs Jason and Jaeyen
in basketball.
finally, me and xinhui WIN!!!!! 
HAHA. 

AND I have a good dinner- 
taiwan mee shua and fried chicken chop and mushroom.
Love it!
<3

today really Happieeeeeeee.
you are make day,
love you all my dear.

Goodnite all.

how lovely I have !